pukul 4 pg

aku sj je nk menaip sesuatu smbil menunggu mata ini mnjadi layu dgn sendirinya..

i'm not at the usual place that i always online.. i was online in the cOld hotel roOm no 308 of suria city hOtel, jb.. the surrOnding was completely in silence.. no sounds could be heard as everybody had closed their eyes and created their dream.. seriously, i want to sleep too but i don't have place to lay my body even for a secOnd.. the bed in this room is tOO crOwded like others rOom.. (i'm on the family vacation which we booked 11 rOom for all the family members.. i have a very,very,very,very,very big family.. honestly, i still dOn't know some of their name.. sucks, right?)

i had yawning for several time.. All of my body systems really need a rest.. but like i've just said, i dOn't have place to sleep.. (nk menyempit utk baring pon x lepas) I still don't find the perfect pOrt to lay my back.. hmm.. i'm envy tOwards them whO got their sleep right now.. they sleep like a log in the cOld of air-cond.. i heard many of snOoring rhythm..

smbil nk menunggu subuh yg tngal lg beberapa jam lg, aku rasa terpanggil lak nk cerita perasaan aku skrg.. aku rasa sungguh sedih aku diperlakukan sebegini.. aku rasa amat kasihan kpd ayah aku.. sejujurnya, ayh aku yg menanggung segala perbelanjaan family trip ini.. mereka yg lain hny dtg utk memeriahkn lg suasana.. ayah aku dh mnmpah 10 bilik utk kesemua ahli keluarga yg tersayang ini tetapi mereka terpaksa menambah lg sebuah bilik (aku x rasa perkataan "terpaksa menambah' patut digunakn kerana hakikatnya tidak ada bilik yg patut ditambah jika semua tahu menghargai dan bersyukur..)

bygkn, drpd asal 10 bilik yg ditempah, famili aku hny amik sebuah bilik.. family aku ada 8 org dan spatutnya menempah 2 buah bilik memndgkan kmi sudh meningkat dewasa.. tp, ayh aku still tmpah satu bilik utk ktorg satu famili sebab ayh aku mmg seorg yg amat jimat.. aku pon x ksah sgt lar sbb aku fhm perangai ayh aku.. ktorg sanggup nk berhimpit 8 org didalm satu bilik hotel yg hny bertaraf 3 bntg.. x ksah pon.. tp, dorg lak yg lebih2.. klu boleyh, nk sume org dpt tido ats katil.. kna r brigat, yg support financial pon dok berhimpit dgn anak2 leyh jer tdO tdo kt lntai beralaskan selimut.. aku rasa sedih sgt.. kesian kt ayh aku.. nseb bek aku x meleleh..

tp, nk wat cmne.. trima je ler.. aku mmg ske ble femly gather ramai2.. tu je ler mslh nyer.. sume nk idop sng.. ayh aku yg kna bersusah.. (ya Allah! aku redha dgn segala ketentuanmu.. engkau berilah kekuatn kpd ayh ku dan engkau ikhlaskanlah hati nya dlm melaksanakn apa jua urusan.. engkau sentiasa lah membuka pintu rezeki yg halal kepadanya dan permurahkanlah rezeki kpd ayahku.. engaku tabahkanlah hatinya ya Allah.. jgn lah engaku mnjdkan nikmat2 yg Engkau kurniakn punca kami lalai dri mensyukurinya.. engaku bimbing lah kami ke jalan yg diredhaimu.. sesunguhnya kapadamu jualah tmpat kmi memohon petunjuk dan pertolongan.. aminn..)

aku rasa lega sedikit skrg dpt lepas kt blog.. tp, aku hrp segalanya akn brjalan dgn lancar.. aku rasa sungguh gembira bila dpt berkumpul satu keluarga.. harap kebahagiaan kekeluargaan akan terus mekar harum mewangi dan lebih kukuh..

p/s; sesape yg terasa, patik mnta maaf sgt2.. hny ingin melepaskan perasaan di hati.. in other wOrds, trying to be hOnest..
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ok larh.. nk tukar mood plak.. dlm kesedihan yg aku simpan dlm ati, aku masih memancarkan raut wajah yg gembira.. aku sbnrnya baru selesai menonton sebuah cerita dari indonesia yg bertajuk wanita berkalang serban dgn sepupu-sepupu perempuan aku.. (best dOwh layan drama ramai-ramai.. mlut x reti nk bg kOmen jer.. then gelak2.. we having so much fun!!)

citer tu agak islamik.. jalan cerita itu bnr2 menyedarkan aku ttg suasana dunia skrg yg byk wanita yg hilg dara sblm berkahwin.. even org yg pakai tdg labuh pOwn leyh terjebak.. aku harap aku tidak terjebak dgn perkara sebegini kerana aku tahu iman aku hanyalah senipis kulit bwg.. aku harus memantapkan iman aku dri hari ke hari agr tidak mudh terpengaruh lebih2 lg aku dh x duduk kt tgb.. byk btOl cbrn dunia yg bakal aku hadapi..


always pray fOr my friends tOo.. hOpe Allah always prOtect them frOm maksiat..

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tukar tOpik yg lebih personal.. :)

aku rasa aku neyh mudah jatuh hati kt org.. itu lah perkara yg aku amt takut sbnrnya.. (susah dOwh sbb ble ad feel mle r jd malu.. payah! berkawan dgn laki pOwn susah.. sng sgt cair.. sengal le..) ari neyh, aku jmpe seorg mamat yg sebaya dgn aku.. rupa dye skali pndg mcm Aliff Aziz.. (tp dye putih sikit dri Aliff Aziz) dye snyom ble tau ktOwg sebaya.. (comel gler dOwh ble dye snyOm.. i'm crazy over his smile!! haha) x dpt borak lama-lama dgn dye.. tp aku, harap aku dpt borak dgn dye lg.. hehe.. sugguh aku mmg berharap dpt sembg2 kosong n amik gmbr dgn dye.. (tp, mslhnye aku malu larh.. rasa takut sgt.. i just wanna be friends with him.. hmm) aku mmg sng jatuh hati tp org lain semua x tau.. aku suka smpan sendri.. :)


i'm in the mOOd fOr flirt.. hahahaha

t.i.g.a

MARCH!!!!

I can't calm myself when i kept thinking of March..

lately, i'm thinking about my SPM result.. hOw wOuld it be? seriously, i hOpe tOo much fOr my result but the truth was i'm sucks when sitting the spm last year.. i'm not too cOnfident with my answer.. now, i can see all my big family members was counting on me.. they hope the extremely good spm result from me.. and i'm not in the mood tO ruin their hOpe.. durhh..

(cuak btOl.. pnt nyerk jd hrpn keluarga.. tp, wat pe nk pk dh.. aku neyh mmg r sengal.. dh hntr dh pon jwpn.. pemeriksa dh siap tnda dh pon.. redha je ler.. berdOa pd Allah shj agr dipermudahkan sgala urusan.. only god knows what is the best fOr HIS servant.. aminn yarabbal alamin)

ok! there's other thing that still disturbing my mind.. JPJ test really killing my happiness.. i 'm going tO sit the jpj test on 12/3!! i'm deadly nervous.. moments that i was practise on the track & on the road were kept playing in my mind.. *how stupid i was in the kancil.. gelabah x tentu pasal.. kna mrh dgn instructOr.. again, i hOpe too much for my jpj test.. i don't want to repeat jpj test.. i've target to get my P before the spm result out since the chemistry paper ended last year..

wargh!! these two things really makes me 'x sng duduk'.. adOyh..

rasa resah..

unexpected pre-test

ari neyh aku kna wat QTI.. sumpah aku terkejut gler sbb cm x prepare jerp.. neyh sume pasal aku nk g Johor nxt week.. so, aku x leyh dtg kls mngu dpn yg spatotnyer aku kna wat QTI on that tyme.. pape je larh..



tkot pnya pasal, aku smpai termimpi2 yg aku nga bwk kereta.. bongok btol aku neyh! penakut sgt.. sbnrnya sblm bgn pg td, aku ingat aku dh mati sbb dlm mimpi tu aku xcident sbb bwk kereta milik bapa aku kaler hitam.. aku x cedera parah just kereta tu yg rosak trok.. hampir sume compartmnet kereta tu terbarai.. aku x igt larh asal jd cmtu.. yg aku tau, aku mmg takut gler sbb kete tu bapak aku syg gler.. again, rasa takot mmg sebati dlm bdn aku menjelma even in a dream..



still cuak, tp aku wat muka toya bgn tdO.. ( aku mmg cmtu.. x reti nk express prasaan melalui tingkah-laku) aku saje bgn lambat2.. akhirnya, aku smpai kt driving ofis tpt jam 8pg.. aku tgk tngal senior trainer aku dgn van nyer.. sumpah! ari neyh aku dtg lmbt dri kebiasaan.. (x ksah lah.. asalkan aku x miss last trip ke Bangi)





so, aku wat le latihan cm biasa.. igtkn x jd wat QTI sbb trainer aku x mnta duit pown.. (fuh.. selamat aku) after praktis kt litar, aku g lepak2 dgn sume org kt pondok.. tetiba, senior trainer aku hulur kad kaler biru.. (sah! mmg aku kna QTI ari neyh) aku dpt kad no 6.. kak Erin & Miza pown wat QTI skali dg aku.. (tetiba jer rasa takut menular kt dlm bdn aku tanpa di undang) now, its my turn to sit the pre-test..



aku dpt kereta kancil kaler silver.. aku try r tkn clucth, setting leklok dlm kereta.. aku cuba knl kereta aku mcm kata trainer aku "x kenal, maka x cinta" (clutch, brek, minyak, gear kereta neyh lembut.. aku pon kna handle lembut2 r)



aku stat Qti dlm litar dgn naik bukit, side-parking & 3 pointer.. skjp jerk wat bnd alah neyh sume walaupun x de r perfect sgt.. lps abes, aku g pondOk semula.. one of my fav trainer dh api-api an aku ckp aku x lulus QTI utk bhg 2.. klu aku lulus, dye ckp aku akan dpt sehelai krtas kuning.. aku angguk je ler mls nk lyn lebih2 sbb aku tahu itu semua dusta!! my other trainers dh gelak sipu2.. (stOp making jerk la, bos.. u mmg sj ske bahan org an.. jht r u neyh.. haha.. i dh nk percye tau x ape yg u ckp..)

then, x smpai 15 minit rehat smbil gelak2 kt pondok, aku kna test utk bhg 3 means on the rOad.. sumpah senyap gler dlm kereta.. keadaan x mcm selalu tyme bljr dgn trainer yg mmg sempoi.. aku bwk je ler smbil ikut nyanyi lagu Extravaganza by Bunkface berkumandang di corong radio.. (ceyh! QTI officer pown nyanyi gak.. x leyh blah.. :) hehe..)

tyme nk msok balik kt driving centre, aku tersalah bg signal lak.. (adOyh.. nseb ngko ler cik mira oyh.. klu abg H**** dok sblh, mst ngko dh kna habis-habisan) then, i got my marks befOre out from the car..

i got 96/100.. hehe.. not bad ryte.. mmg aku bernasib baik kali ini.. harap aku dpt mrkh yg best juga utk test jpj nnt on 12/3.. (a little bit of scared when thinking of this date.. oh gOd! please makes everything easier for me and my friends..)


now, i'm off from having any driving class fOr about a week.. wee~~ :)

nk update blog tp mls.. nnt r ble rajen.. byk citer skrg neyh.. again, mls nk buka mulut.. haha

PEMALAS!!!!!

kebengapan aku di Bangi

td aku bwk kereta kt dlm litar di bangi..


tyme nga amik side tepi befOre parking,

kereta aku dh senget sebelah kiri sebab langgar divider.. (pdn muka!!)
plg terOk, hmpir langgar trainer aku kt tepi divider tue.. (sorry abg H****.. sungguh tidak sengaja)

malu giler kna mrh kt tgh litar.. sume org tgk.. aku neyh mmg bongok an.. haha..

3 pOinter : dOing gOod.. sng jerk
parking : ok larh after beberapa kali praktis..
naik bukit : teramatlah x konfiden lg.. x pndai nk bjet larh.. i hate break mengejut
on the rOad: we'll see tOmOrrow how it gOes.. kind of excited but a little bit nervOus.. (dh tgk jln dye td.. x da kna belok2 juz jln straight jerk tp ad mcm2 circumstances r * traffic light, bulatan, naik bukit, turun bukit, bumper, kereta, motor, lori, org jlan kaki, u turn.. i takot gear x msOk)

overall, best!! (:

dOes this is the right chOice fOr me??

pilihan 1 - asasi alam bina (um)
pilihan 2 - diploma seni bina (utm) *interview
pilihan 3 -asasi seni bina dan reka bentuk alam sekitar (uia)
pilihan 4- diploma perancangan bandar dan wilayah (utm)
pilihan 5 - diploma ukur bahan (utm)
pilihan 6 - diploma ukur tanah (utm)
pilihan 7 - asasi sains fizikal (um)
pilihan 8- diploma bangunan (uitm)

p/s : 4 from 8 of my choices are utm..
wargh!! cuak btOl nk memilih neyh.. x pe larh.. after i got my spm result, i'll update again tO make the best chOice.. i still have 3 chances..

ucapan org mamai di tgh mlm..

aku bOsan.. so, i prefer to write a new pOst for my blOg.. x de idea sbnrnye.. cme rase ingin brckp psl driving class kerana aku semakin suka menghadirinya..

sesungguhnya, aku dh rasa sronok bljr mmndu sbb aku dh leyh wat side-parking.. (hOoray!! ) tp, hkikatnyerk, naek bukit masih merangkak & parking kereta x de la se'perfect' cikgu2 yg mengajar (ptot ke pangey cikgu?? perangai lebih kurg mcm student jerk dowg neyh.. mmg sengal gler.. haha) thnx ler kpd cik D*****, cik A*** , Cik A*** yg............. (eyh!! bpk sopan aku neyh.. siap ber'cik' neyh!!) hmm.. better pangey nama jerk.. trima kasih kpd D*****, A*** & A*** yg byk membantu & bersabar dgn karenah kami yg suka menjahanamkan kereta kancil putih & merah hang pa sumer yg mmg dh patut sgt msok kdai besi burok.. (maaf yerk keta kancil yg byk berjasa krn menggunakan bhs yg kurg sopan.. i'm just trying to be honest..)

smasa aku praktis parking, aku menerima kunjungan dri org yg aku syg.. aku x perasan kehadiran dye sbb dye di dalam sebuah kereta yg mempunyai cermin tgkp gelap (thp tinted yg mmg x leyh lps dgn jpj klu kna tgkp) kemudian, salah seorg trainer aku berkata iaitu A*** kpd D***** yg duduk di sebelah begit khusyuk memerhati aku memarkir kereta..


A*** : sape pnye kereta gne plat melaka lak neyh??
D***** : mana??
A*** : tu.. (sambil jari telunjuknya tepat ke arah sasaran) kereta savvy hitam..
D***** : mcm biasa tgk kereta neyh...

aku mls nk lyn mereka tros memusingkan stereng ke kiri habis seperti diarah kan D***** sbntar td.. tiba-tiba..

A*** : mira.. (smbil menundukkan kepala melihat aku dan jari menunjuk ke arah kereta savvy yg tersadai d tepi jln) itu kereta atuk eyk??
aku : (merenung lama nk mengecam..) ha'ah..
D***** : dye nk tgk cucu dye bwk keta r tu..
A*** : haa!! wat yg terbaek punyer..

aku hanya mampu tersenyom.. dlm ati mmg berkobar-kobar nk tunjok kehebatan aku.. dkt luar kereta aku dgr lak A*** & D***** ckp psl atuk aku.. ayat yg aku x leyh thn nk gelak bila...

A***: wat btol2 mira.. mst atuk awk ckp.. hayh!! cucu atok dh reti bwk keta skrg.. (in atOk2 voice)..

kt luar, aku dh dgr D***** gelak thp gaban.. ntah pa pe la A*** neyh.. atuk aku sihat lg tau.. suara dye x sehuduh suara ngkO.. siOt jerk..

then, i tried again do the side parking.. but, i've just got practise to park my car 4 times before D***** asked me to go out from the car.. (kacau daun lar.. aku bwu praktis skjp.. aku x puas lg r) like he heard my inner vOice said, he replied " dh cukup r ngko bwk.. bg org lain plak.. ngkO dh teror" sO, I responded by pressing the clutch & free the gear, pulled handbreak & unfastened my seat belt to give others to drive..

tidak ku sangka

aku belek-belek ar fail kt dlm laptop aku neyh.. x sgka byk gler gambar aku di tgb.. tetiba rase rindu dtg menerpa.. (ceyh! nk masok sayu mOde lak..) x ksah ler ape2 pOwn.. yg dh lps biarkan berlalu.. juz gmbr jer yg leyh jd kenangan & bukti aku pernah idOp kt jasEn.. (eyh! melalut ckp psl file gmbr lak.. niat nk citer bnda len..)

neyh citer sbnrnye..

things that i've never thought befOre is when i opened my sOng's folder.. there are a lot of sOng in it.. frOm evergreen till indie.. (love BUNKFACE so much!! hehe)

then my eyes caught on a file named 'nasyEed'.. i double-click on that fOlder & many fOlders appeared after it.. ( *in curious mode -ble mase lak aku jd penggemar nasyEed neyh??) sumpah!! byk gler lagu nasyeed yg mmg aku x prnah dgr.. kalah lagu2 indie yg aku smpan kt dlm laptop tau..

then, i was thinking.. does this is one of HIS sign?? aku mmg slaloo melalak dgn adek aku dgr lagu2 frOm other genre.. ( suara aku x de r sdp.. we do it just for fun lorh) dipendekkan cerite, mcm sumer org suke wat, aku pown ske wat perkara 'lagha'.. (i've learned this word in tgb)

jadi, aku try lar dgr lagu zikir from Hijjaz.. best gak.. muzik dye cOol jek.. (tenang jerk aku rase..) trigat lak kt tgb yg mmg islamic.. then, trigat lak Safina & Ezzaty.. dowg neyh mmg lyn lagu nasyEed.. satu lg, dowg mmg satu kepale ske gOssip.. aku, Raidah & Nick mmg kepala indie.. (haisy.. rindu btol larh kt korg.. dh x da chance lg nk dgr cerita baru & sembang2 & gelak kuat2.. u guys mmg cOol!! mcm2 karenah..)

aku pown tros membuat andaian sendri.. sumer lagu nasyEed kt dlm laptop aku neyh mst keje fina dgn zaty.. mcm2 cara dowg wat agar aku jd manusia yg lebih baek.. (oops!! this statement, doesn't mean that i'm a person that are too bad.. just not as good as them larh.. i tried tO be better persOn as life & earth getting older..) mmg sah r keje dowg..

thnx girls!! kalau korg x transfer lagu nasyeEd kt laptop aku, mmg aku x kn layan r.. nk harap aku downlOad sendri?? jgn harap larh..

there's no wrOng to attempt something new.. besides, it gives new experiences that colours our life..

(n_n)

lightning thief

after cOunting with all my 10 finger, i knew 11 Feb is next weEk.. hmm.. i really want to watch movie release on that day.. (x igt lak title dat mOvie.. pnjg sgt)

but, i dOn't have friend nk ajak.. cmne neyh?? aku nk sgt tgk cter tue.. hmm.. dlm otak nk ajk nik.. tp, dh brpuluh kali aku send msg kt dye.. x rply pown minah tue.. ad mslh ke?? (nik, nik, nik.. mne ler ngko mnyepikan diri.. adoyh.. dh lme x jmpe ngko neyh.. rndu nk dgr sOre ngko..) buhsan gler idOp..

x pown, aku ajak nadiah je larh.. ok gak.. rumah ktorg dk jerk.. lepak kt iOi ok gak.. hehe.. pintar gak otak aku neyh.. x sbr nk jmpe nadiah tyme driving class next week..

nadiah from my viEw:

+dye sebaya dgn aku+

+ktowg knl tyme driving kls+

+cun gak r+

+baEk+

+ex-mrsm gemencheh+

+ktowg skE gossip psl trainer kt driving academy tue+

+mcm ad 'chemistry' dgn dye.. bwu berkenalan smlm dh kamceng gler+

+sonok praktis parking klu dye nek keta sama dgn aku+

emosi terganggu

parah neyh.. asal le aku mst rase sakit pwot ble nk msok kul 2.. penyakit baru ape le yg dh hinggap kt aku neyh.. sengal..

8celi, i'm gOing to have driving class sharp at 2.30 pm.. driving class shud be an exciting moment fOr others but not for me.. durrhh.. mst kna sOund ler nnt.. haha.. trainer tu x de r yelling trOk sgt mcm ust. azizul pernah marah aku x tentu pasal.. (bknye terOk sgt pown kesalahan aku.. seriOusly, mmg aku bengang gler r tyme tu.. my respect tO him decrease mendadak.. amek kau!!)

i just dOn't like it when peOple cOrrected my mistake.. i can't.. i wud feel wanna use my magic pOwder ( if i have one & that thing really exist) & makes myself suddenly dissapear.. malu nk trima kesalahan beb!! it was my weakness..

perasaan yg mendebarkan..

just nOw my heart never stOp sOunding like this "dub, dab, dub, dab" never thought syllybus dat i scared most in driving was learning today. haha..

aku rase berdebar jerk ble a*** ckp "neyh tgk btOl2 cmne nk naek bkt". adOyh.. aku dh r ngantok.. nseb bek x kantoi aku terlelap kt seat blkg.. (Eyh, mamat neyh.. bkn nk ckp awl-awal. igtkan lps praktis parking dh bleyh blek. mood aku dh ilang neyh sbb ngko gak. hmm.. pk2 blek mmg aku neyh lembab.. xpe2.. ) aku pown dok kt tgh seat blkg bg spnoh prhatian kt pngajarn a***..

a***: klu x fhm tny.. (seriously, dat statement was headed to me.. tau ler aku lmbab.. agk2 r weyh) ok tgk.. tkan clutch, msOk gear 1 then agkt sket clutch.. tkn mnyak kasi maintain 3.. jgn men2 dgn mnyk.. ble dh rase keta cm dh mendap lepaskan handbrek.. agkt clutch sket then maintain clutch & mnyak jln slow2..

aku pOwn mlihat dye drive dgn lancar lg bergaya dtmani lg sOrg mamat kt sblh driver.. dipendekkan cter, ad 3 org manusia yg lbeyh kurg sebaya & i'm the only girl in the red kancil on the bkt.. suddenly, i remembered abOut BADAR's common advice ayat dOwg slalOo berbunyi begini " x bek laki pompuan bkn muhrim dok berdua kt tmpt sunyi.. x da org ketiga antara melainkan syaitan" (tp ktorg bertiga.. jgn nk fikir lebih-lebih lak.. lebeyh bek ngkO cOol jerk.. jgn smpit kn pmikiran ngko yg mmg x besar)

a***: ok. stop kt pokok no 2 neyh.. ( aku x nmpk pOwn ad nOmbOr kt pokOk tu.. gler ke??)

tgk blkg ad pokok no 1, pOkok 2, pOkok 3 n pili SYABAS no 4.. berhenti kt stiap tnda.. ( fuhh.. otak bgos gak dye neyh.. kreatif sungguh.. mcm org kt tamadun indus lak.. pandai mengadaptasi alam semulajadi dlm kehidupan..leyh jmt kos xyah psg tnda..) kta try ag.. tgk btOl2..

aku pOwn cbe mmbri spnOh prhatian.. hkikatnyer, otak aku x msOk sgt ape dye ckp.. hmm.. again, dub, dab, dub, dab..

mamat kt sblh dye pown try apbila disuruh oleh cikgu ktOrag, a***.. mantOp gler ar dye wat.. relax jerk.. mcm dye lak cikgu.. aku??? tok sah cter r..

mati enjin : x igt baper kali..

keta 'ter' reverse kt blkg: mmg susah nk d selamatkan.. lg sket nk brkecai bumper blkg.. jgn ckp syg keta, nyawa pown x tau cmne.. (ganas btOl ler ank pak zAck neyh)

once again enjin keta mati, then dh x leyh stat enjin ag.. (syukOr, bteri weak.. cpt r aku abes sgala saat yg mendebarkan itu)

position kmi di dalam kereta bertukar lg.. a***, si cikgu menjelma sbg si driver mghntr mamat tersebut dan aku smpai ke pintu rumah 50, A*** **t**A, Bkt Jalil.. perkara ini nyata lg menghangatkan ke'bengang'an a*** kt aku sbb locatiOn rumah aku plg jauh antra sumer student2 nyer.. (padan mke!! td x syg mulut sgt.. hahahahaha)